I guess we all have our own insecurities; for one person it might be her body image and for another her financial issues and yet for another her lack of formal education. It is interesting that we perceive of insecurity as a feminine attribute and yet it seems to be a universal characteristic of all human beings: I did not get enough love when I was a child, I was never good with math, my nose was big, my body was fat, my family was poor, my friends were ignorant, and you name it. so, one doesn't need to mention that if our peculiar case was in fact very common then it could not qualify as an insecurity. One of the causes of our discriminatory behavior is that we are “comparing creatures”. We learn that certain attributes are good (either through our nature or via nurture) and then we seek those attributes in ourselves and when we don't quite find it we get disappointed. One way of dealing with them is to try to improve upon ourselves. That comes with a great deal of suffering and energy expenditure and life is finite after all. Or alternatively, we can try to make peace with our shortcomings. We also have a sense of justice that tells us to what extent a given person (including ourselves) deserves certain privileges. So, we construct a system of proportions and correspondences and expect certain actions yield certain consequences and certain guys marry certain girls. Then, for the rest of our lives we live within the confines of these philosophical construct and practice our judgments. Occasionally, we see or hear cases that deviate from our expectations and it surprises us, but then we go on. What is wrong with this system?

Hello no-where-land! I am officially your citizen. I am a man of no special wanting. I'm the carrier of no special desire. I'm only a wanderer in your never ending land. The last time I checked I had forgotten what I had to say, what I yearned so long, what I had once sensed so intimately. No-where-land, I'm all yours, you know it right? No-where-land, don't take me wrong! Don't think you found a new lover; I'm just a no-where-man that naturally belongs to a no-where-land. In addition, a no-where-land that is loved by a man is just another beloved-land. I'm sure you don't want that, do you? A beloved-land is a boring land since it essentially belongs to a single man. But, a no-where-land is a projective plane that contains the voids of all beloved-lands. Thus, you are unbounded and uncounted! No-where-land, don't think that I'm afraid of loving you. In fact, tell you a secret I kind of like you and been checking you out! Ha ha ha, I got you going ... A no-where-land with a beloved-land's desires! How do you explain that? Why can't you just be content with being a no-where-land? Oh dear no-where-land, I should confess I'm guilty of hypocrisy myself. Since, I lied to you when I said I was a no-where-man! I've gotta go now. Since, in the world of alpha-men I'm still searching for my where-about. But, thanks for being there for me, my friend no-where-land!
 

People describe it as a weird thing to do. Since that’s not the way it is normally done. Thus, the outcomes are uncertain. It might put you in an uncomfortable situation. Even though, that might not be the first thing that comes to your mind. In fact, you most probably stop for a second and wonder and then you just simply ignore it!
Am I projecting my preconceptions onto the situation? Who knows!
But, you might ask: what situation?
Yeh baby … I got you going! I think we should hang out. I want to get to know you. Simply put: I’m curious about you!
At this moment probably your amygdalate is going to kick in and take control of the situation. But that’s okay! Since, that’s being a human and we can’t do much about it. Nevertheless, seeking reasons for probable actions by asking whys has also been a deriving force in the advancement of human race.
Thus, I assume that implicitly or explicitly you are asking yourself why you might want to expand your universe (putting it very optimistically)?
This is also a question that I need to address! To that I can just say: an improvement in possibilities and resources! That’s why birds migrate. Alternatively, you might choose to hibernate. Evolution has proven both strategies as being feasible solutions!

But, wait a minute … I feel like I have made it all too complicated. I feel like it should be a lot simpler than that. By the way, this is the same feeling that told me in the first place that I should get in touch with you. Don’t get me wrong! I’m not in love with you … I even barely know you! I just thought it might be fun …

Looking forward to hear from you!

C-


There’s a hole in the picture
There’s picture on the wall
I’m wondering if I should call

There’s a hole in the picture
There’s picture on the wall
What if my call strikes as dull?

There’s a hole in the picture
There’s picture on the wall
What if I go to the top if the hill and fall?

There’s a hole in the picture
There’s picture on the wall
Can you fill a hole by a simple call?

There’s a hole in the picture
There’s picture on the wall
It's the time to hit the icecream and forget the vile!

Scientific method
 

"Ideas that are believed to be real, are real in their consequences." --W. I. Thomas
 

I am pretty! 

The Emerging Mind Your Own Bussiness As Usual! 

I see the coordinates, I see the edges, and I see the vertices. That�s true! I am in a box, and man is born in ignorance of the box and becomes aware of it through experience!
To be continued�
 

So, you have an establishment and you think just by the virtue of having an establishment your mandates ought to be binding. But, the forces of rebellion do no recognize your authority. What is here at stake is your human all too human desire for preservation of your territory. You think you deserve respect for you have been handed down that respect by tradition or you have acquired it. But, relax ... since you are alone! In this transformed domain values are void of meaning. People are free to act as they desire and pleases them. In expecting respect you are making a fundamental error, that is, you are assuming that everybody should follow a set of predetermined rules. But, the rebellion in us is not guided by rules, but by a desire to liberate us from the human all too human in us. Nevertheless, don't get me wrong my friend. I feel a great deal of sympathy with you! Thorough my life, many times, I also found myself being ostracized for my noblest thoughts! But, noble was all too human. My mandates were all too loose. My deepest convictions were all too superfluous. The truth came as the bitter taste of defeat: that mandates are made binding through power not morality!

When tommorow comes you might prove me wrong, that is, you might anihalate my convictions. But, the day after tomorrow is the day of creation, and I’ll be there. In this cyclic theater of the absurd we shall find the Truth!
 

So here is it goes: for most part human life sucks! Now, while you are young you engage in a set of activities that hopefully will add up to your knowledge-base. Somehow that repository will save your ass for the rest of your life ... stuff goes on ... but you try to stay focused and hopefully you have developed some passion towards your activities. Meanwhile, you try to reduce somebody�s pain and suffering on the way ... then stuff happens and finally you die.
Q. Does it worth it?
A. Does what worth it? If you mean engaging in some activities that you feel passionate about or if you mean reducing somebody's pain then I think it does. If you mean life then I would say no! But what is life?
 

What are you going to do about it? 

Sex is used to sieve out harmful mutations! 

Sometimes in doubt I despair!
Then in realization I rejoice!
So, to destiny I succumb!
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http://www.jeffiscool.com/numanuma.html 

I used to ask myself what older people think when they come face to face with mortality of man? At 25 the answer is coming to me...: They don't think!!!
Good night,
 

Here is something that I've been working on (details confidential...): 

One can always find patterns behind cumbersome mathematical concepts!

"Our whole reward is seeing!" --Saint Augustine

Bipolar Depression linked to Creativity:

Let the diversity of the subjects she deals with and the complexity of her being not fool you. She is a slave of her emotion. She is the bearer of a great pain. As the earth rotates and the sun goes rolling down the sky she thinks life is a lonesome chasm to reside in. Her moods swing and her beasts go wild. What an absurdity in retrospective! What a nausea in prospective! There is no end to absurdity other than in insanity! There is no conclusion to nausea other than in vomiting!
As the first messenger of dawn knocks on her window she realizes it's the time to leave the familiar world of absurdity and enter to an even more absurd world of rationality. What a never ending cycle! What an ever enduring pain! Let her alone in her solitude! There is more in her depression than a simple attitude!
 

Know Thyself:
Why do we act the way we do?
1. Immediate Urges: hunger, security, mating, …
2. Moods: depressed, hyper, worry, …
3. Emotions: hot, happy, …
4. Thoughts: recognition, nobility, honor, …

What does cognitive sciences tell us about all of these?
• Can be explained, understood, and visualized in terms of patterns of neural activity or specialized regions in the brain.
• Where do these neurons, these brain blobs come from?
i. Genes (effect on proteins, neurons, neural nets)
ii. Experience (brain plasticity)

Are we like blank slates when we are born?
• Reflexes
• Instincts
• Universal language
• Form

Are we hardwired?
• Two hundred billion neurons!
• We lose our neurons if we do not use them!
• Those who remain increase in their complexity!

Where are we going from here?
• What happens when we learn new stuff?
• What are our memories?
• What do we mean by urges, moods, emotions, and thoughts?

When I think of a beautiful summer night by the beach what do I really do?
• Our thoughts are nothing more than special pattern of neural activities!
• Patterns of neural activities are shaped within a neural network!
• To what extend these patterns are influenced by our experience?
• To what extend they are innate?

Why is there so much emphasis on knowing 'oneself' in religious literature?
Why does it all mater at all?

In Progress (firstcomet):

Sometimes I sit by me, and I wonder why I exist! And what it means that I exist!
Suddenly, I get so frightened that start to laugh!
It then stops and sojourns in wonder some more; searching through the repository of memory, trying to find some clues to the origin of its existence,
Memory, helpless and exhausted has nothing to offer!
Instructions keep acting upon inputs to the working memory, but the resulting output is of no sense!
I stop and laugh one more time. This time, laughter is interrupted by the bitter presence of a piece of memory, that instructions interpret it as "Mortality of I".
There is no place for laughter anymore. I have no reason for despair either.
Life goes on, and I should carry on. I enjoy good music, and music is on!

A primate case study: Why don't you do that?
How do different people look at a discussion?
� Search for truth
� Establishing dominance
� Intellectual masturbation
Observations:
Applications of "Why don't you do that?" derogatory phrase:
� To terminate the discussion.
� To defy the hypothetical dominance established by the opponent.
� An attempt to accuse the opponent of hypocrisy.