2/4/06

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One can always find patterns behind cumbersome mathematical concepts!

"Our whole reward is seeing!" --Saint Augustine

1/29/06

Bipolar Depression linked to Creativity:

Let the diversity of the subjects she deals with and the complexity of her being not fool you. She is a slave of her emotion. She is the bearer of a great pain. As the earth rotates and the sun goes rolling down the sky she thinks life is a lonesome chasm to reside in. Her moods swing and her beasts go wild. What an absurdity in retrospective! What a nausea in prospective! There is no end to absurdity other than in insanity! There is no conclusion to nausea other than in vomiting!
As the first messenger of dawn knocks on her window she realizes it's the time to leave the familiar world of absurdity and enter to an even more absurd world of rationality. What a never ending cycle! What an ever enduring pain! Let her alone in her solitude! There is more in her depression than a simple attitude!
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Know Thyself:
Why do we act the way we do?
1. Immediate Urges: hunger, security, mating, …
2. Moods: depressed, hyper, worry, …
3. Emotions: hot, happy, …
4. Thoughts: recognition, nobility, honor, …

What does cognitive sciences tell us about all of these?
• Can be explained, understood, and visualized in terms of patterns of neural activity or specialized regions in the brain.
• Where do these neurons, these brain blobs come from?
i. Genes (effect on proteins, neurons, neural nets)
ii. Experience (brain plasticity)

Are we like blank slates when we are born?
• Reflexes
• Instincts
• Universal language
• Form

Are we hardwired?
• Two hundred billion neurons!
• We lose our neurons if we do not use them!
• Those who remain increase in their complexity!

Where are we going from here?
• What happens when we learn new stuff?
• What are our memories?
• What do we mean by urges, moods, emotions, and thoughts?

When I think of a beautiful summer night by the beach what do I really do?
• Our thoughts are nothing more than special pattern of neural activities!
• Patterns of neural activities are shaped within a neural network!
• To what extend these patterns are influenced by our experience?
• To what extend they are innate?

Why is there so much emphasis on knowing 'oneself' in religious literature?
Why does it all mater at all?

In Progress (firstcomet):

Sometimes I sit by me, and I wonder why I exist! And what it means that I exist!
Suddenly, I get so frightened that start to laugh!
It then stops and sojourns in wonder some more; searching through the repository of memory, trying to find some clues to the origin of its existence,
Memory, helpless and exhausted has nothing to offer!
Instructions keep acting upon inputs to the working memory, but the resulting output is of no sense!
I stop and laugh one more time. This time, laughter is interrupted by the bitter presence of a piece of memory, that instructions interpret it as "Mortality of I".
There is no place for laughter anymore. I have no reason for despair either.
Life goes on, and I should carry on. I enjoy good music, and music is on!
A primate case study: Why don't you do that?
How do different people look at a discussion?
� Search for truth
� Establishing dominance
� Intellectual masturbation
Observations:
Applications of "Why don't you do that?" derogatory phrase:
� To terminate the discussion.
� To defy the hypothetical dominance established by the opponent.
� An attempt to accuse the opponent of hypocrisy.
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